I recently revisited a journal entry of mine, and it illuminated an important concept.

How you feel, your inner state, has a huge impact on what you see.

In my case, exactly what I needed.... was hiding for me in plain sight... until I cleared some heavy emotions.

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I had just landed in beach paradise Mazunte, Mexico (now sadly destroyed by a recent hurricane).

After a challenging day, I wasn't feeling hungry but I thought I should feed myself before ascending a long steep hill to my hotel.

Pizza called.

It's not the kind of food that helps me with cellular vitality, gut health, and athletic performance.

I felt nigh the slice of reality in which I got pizza and negative spiraled my day further.

Instead of indulging, I sat down and journaled on my feelings & needs.

There was a lot going on!

Lots of needs.

Note to future self: next time include met needs too, for a positive spin.

After journaling, I still felt a craving to drown my discomfort in pizza.

I had the presence of mind to pull out a vibrational scale. I was at the total bottom. It took maybe five minutes but I got to a point where I felt in love with myself and life again.

Finally, I saw some musicians going into the beachside gourmet pizza restaurant, to play a set for the patrons. A lovely sign from the universe?

I see this as masterful: Even holding my dreams & goals, knowing pizza is not aligned but there might be some interaction or other experience to be had, I went into the pizza parlor. The lion's den.

And there was salad on the menu... but no seats.

So I left. I walked.

Nothing called to me, so I trusted the unfolding and kept walking.

Finally, I decided to sit for a 4 minute "fuck yes" meditation.

That's where you just say "fuck yes fuck yes fuck yes" over and over in your mind, and greet everything with open armed "fuck yes" enthusiasm.

I followed my nose to the empanada restaurant I had passed by 5 times already - decidedly not the food for me, only to find another restaurant hidden within!

And this restaurant, "Umami", had farm to table bowls featuring local caught fish and delicious greens.

Food that would fuel my dreams.

I sighed in relief, smiled at the way physical reality seems to shift when we change our internal state. I had walked past this restaurant so many times and it was invisible before I changed my vibration.

This is the problem with staying too long in victim stories, in letting your reactions become moods and then identities.

An entire world of possibility awaits you; but it's not even visible when you are in a bad enough mood.

Shift your internal state, and the right path becomes obvious.